Let’s play a game…

Let’s play this game… Oh let’s play this game too…


You decide the rules, you just say it and I’ll play. For I once promised I’ll play along… against you and yet by your side and for that’s all I wanna do. For you are all the smiles and you are all the wins… for you are all the tears and all the defeats too. For it’s just you and me. Let’s play this game together.


Let’s have you play foul left n’ right n’ center and I’ll still play. Let’s play it your way… Let’s have you winning all the time… and I’ll still play. Let’s have you defeat me times and again… oh let’s have you defeat me without a match and I’ll still play. Let me surrender… times and again… and yet again I’ll play.


I’ll play along. I’ll play how you like. You want me to stand by your side… I’ll do. You want me to cheer you winning over me.. I’ll do. You want me to be you… ah I will. You want there be no two sides and still your side to win… I’ll make that happen. Crazy wishes aren’t they… for you I’ll make them true.


Come… let’s play this game too…


Or no melancholy…

I walk lost… kicking no dust,

I avoid it unknowingly and careful

They deserve to not get kicked… as if


I walk on the footpath…  alone

Holding care, holding knowing-ness

Holding breath sometimes… unknowingly


Sometimes I hold tears… in eyes

Not to hide sadness, but waiting on smile

To stretch, to push eyes close, to scatter a few drops


In the dead of night… I wake up

I fix water tapping meaninglessly,

I fix a dirty little doormat by the door… carefully


I see the peach moist walls

They are not so disgusting after all,

The wooden swing in my balcony, I stand by it, sometimes


Hold a feeling of being me

Forgotten… long lost me, just seen

In a huge bucket of lost and founds… as if


The city growing on me…

I’ve learnt to laugh the thought off

It doesn’t grow, I’ve known this city for a while now


With things out of place

I am at peace, easy, unconcerned

The moist rejection, the anguish feels gone blur


Holding a thin smile in eyes

I walk alone, away from the cosmos

Connected yet… to me… more than ever before.

My satchel of memories

Long long time since… Since what? Since I missed you? Since I wrote something like this? Since I remained up all night? Or since I got time to look up from my desk to find no you?

Since I walked in rain? Since I searched the bushes for a firefly? Since I unfolded my fingers for winds to play with? Since I stopped listening to the murmur of the dry leaves beneath my foot?

Since I went to temple and had something to ask for? Or since I stopped knowing to have got a wish? Since the fingers folded stopped making sense to me? Since there has been no you?

Since I noticed the hot moist white vapours in my coffee cup? Since last I had a dream to cherish? Since last I heard what you did not say? Since last I whispered.. me too!

Beauty of a Small Life…

Feeling blue I sit by the river side… made numb by its huge mighty wave
Ambitions that I once thought were future I watch them all washed away
King size dreams of a little girl… to ride all waves… to win whole of the world
Little did she know… hard way she learned… world doesn’t work that way

Feeling blue I stroll by the roadside alone… in the deafening sound of rush
On the verge of dying a dream of success stands… and all I could do is push
They peep through the huge crowd… and I take my eyes away from them
I abandoned to shrill winters all that I hatched like my child in a warm hush

Feeling blue I walk to an old place… with flowers in bloom and grasses green
Where people are old and gray… Oh I walk to a simpler world… to an easier life
What no one knows in my world… what somehow resembles to my old good
Did I leave it all in search for future that I call my today, damned of me! O My!

The blue will be washed off… a naïve faith blooms… an innocent wish unfolds
Scared dreams walk through crowd, drowning ambitions emerge from waves
The little girl kindles inside me a new dream of calmness, of un-celebratedness
May I live in here for a little while… unsung but happy… small but beautiful…

P.S. I know its a disconnect but when did I ever care? So… Happy Birthday!